Eating My Feelings ~ #ROW80 Check-In

4On the same day UNMASKING: LEMON’S THESIS released, an old friend of my husband’s passed away.  My husband had known him since high school and I hung out with the man more than a few times.  My miniature war gaming?  It was this man’s influence.  I watched my husband and him play a game and then he gave me a sheet, lent me some minis, and had me join in.  So, the fact I spent the night before his memorial service (Friday) trying to figure out/playing Heroclix?  Very fitting.  (Though, he might have called it “miniature gaming for card floppers” or something like that.)

So yesterday, Saturday, was the service.  It started then.  Me putting food in my mouth nonstop, not giving a crap if it was good or bad for me.  I just had to like it or it had to look sweet.  I wanted to eat.  I still want to eat.  I’m too tired and sad to have willpower.

But I had it.  Monday through Thursday, I was awesome.  I did most of the stuff I was supposed to.  Household, exercise, and writing were all in balance.  Then the sads started on Friday and…  I just ate more fudge.  I shouldn’t have done that.

UNMASKING: LEMON’S THESIS got two reviews. See, you totally should read it!

I’m giving myself until the end of today to be a sad sack.  I’ll resume exercise and writing properly tomorrow.  Today, being a ball in my covers eating muffins is okay.

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5 thoughts on “Eating My Feelings ~ #ROW80 Check-In

  1. I’m sorry for your loss. I think it’s perfectly fine to be sad and to eat. We all know that eating can be comforting. And you did well for most of the week! I’m not a big fan of beating myself up b/c that just leads to guilt which (at least for me) leads to more eating which leads to more guilt…and so on. Take the time to mourn, and then try to get back on track soon.

    I had a co-worker who passed in October. I was close to him, and I took it very hard. I mourned all weekend, and then got back to work (day job+writing) the following week. You need to feel what you need to feel. In my case, I couldn’t even write until I’d written a blog post about him. It needed to be done, I needed to put that out there, before I could move on. Maybe something like that might help you?

    Hugs, and take care of yourself.

  2. Kat Morrisey

    I’m so sorry for the loss of your friend. I have been an emotional eater since i was 8. I hate it. I try to think of food as fuel only, so I can disassociate the two things, but it’s so dang hard. When I’m sad I just want a bag of doritos and some salsa, darn it! 🙂 So you’re not alone in this, there are many of us out there. Give yourself that day or two to comfort yourself with what makes you feel good. We all need it sometimes. You’ll bounce back; heck, you already did! 😀

    Congrats on your release and I’m wishing you much progress and positive reviews in the weeks to come. Happy writing!

  3. I’m sorry for your loss. Grieving is a process, it doesn’t go away over night. Give yourself a little room and try not to be so hard on yourself. I sympathize about the food. I just had a monster size piece of apple pie, for no reason. Congrats on the new reviews and I hope next week is better for you.

  4. My vote is with the rest of the commentors. You need to give yourself time to grieve and if your grieving process includes obscene amounts of fudge, well, that’s just how it goes. Of course, after a couple days you do need to get a grip and get on with life. After my sister died, I – well – I sucked it up on the outside, but continued to be a mess inside for a very long time. Until I started asking myself what she would do and what she would think of me for being a mess. This June it will be 17 years (holy cow, is that possible??) since she died. Not a day goes by that I don’t miss her and then say to myself, “she would expect you to go on”.

    Best wishes for a better upcoming week.

  5. A lot of us have that on again/off again comfort relationship with food. I hope you don’t knock yourself around too much for finding solace with chocolate or whatever is a bit sweet. I admire your resolve to get back to the writing and the walking. Sending hopes you will find sweet memories to comfort you. And maybe a little hot chocolate. My hubby is not doing well just now, so I’ll take comfort from your post and re-commit to walking . . . and eating a little more sensibly. May your week be a good one.

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