I’ve been trying to fight it and stay positive or focused on the small bits instead of the overwhelming big picture or tell myself I’m being too hard on me. It didn’t work. The dark side got me. That’s the only reason I’d spend a Friday, home alone, watching the Lifetime Movie Network (LMN)* instead of doing something productive or (here’s an even more revolutionary idea) a fun activity. Even worse? I knew it was an ultimate low, because I have a desire to watch that 17 marathon that’s on today. Thank goodness the kids are home (and that sort of viewing is inappropriate for them).
Lately, I’ve been feeling like I’ve been trying so hard and getting nowhere. I’m not talking just about writing. I’m talking about losing weight, organizing my house, learning Japanese, and so on. I’ve been very frustrated and feeling stuck. And, like I said, I tried to not let them win.
But, the yucky feelings won and that’s all I got. I’m not sure where I go from here. Do I take a week away from everything? Do I take the LMN as my down time and put on my big girl pants and move forward? Do I try to get some things finished in a single minded manner (like a day devoted to yard work)? Quite frankly, I can’t really figure it out. My mind is all “The couch is comfy me and Jim Henson Creature Workshop wants to be watched.”
So, how was I doing before crashing and burning?
Review Grammar 4 Days (breakfast) 4 / 4
Study Japanese 4 Days (lunch) 4 / 4 – Usually day 4 is Friday. I didn’t then. I did it Saturday morning in order to not add fuel to the yucky feelings.
Read 25+ pages 12 / 25 pages – I had planned on reading Friday in between cleaning. I watched SEXTING IN SUBURBIA instead.
Visit 2 ROWers (minimum) Each Check-In For Sunday’s check-in I did 2. For Wednesday’s I did 3.
Before Round Ends
Finish Writing Cycles 2.2 <-I’m on this cycle, 3.2, 1.3, 2.3, & 3.3 To end my current cycle I still needed to reach 50% mark in GRANDMA [one third of the way done], edit CLOSURE [DONE 4/14], & gender swap character [DONE 4/16].
Complete 5 Projects (from project/procrastination list) Made the list and keep adding to it. This was one of the makers of the yucky feelings.
Write Kid’s Chore List, Summer Review [DONE], and Spanish Lessons [DONE]. I wrote out the weekly and daily schedules, so I’ll be able to do the chores soon. Review and lessons done (4/15).
Write My Schedule Adjustments, Japanese Review [DONE], and More No progress.
Get Kids’ Summer Journals Not yet.
What will happen between check-ins? Quite simple really. Step 1: Get a plan in place to get yucky feelings to go bye-bye. Step 2: Do plan. Step 3: Feel better. If not, return to Step 1 and repeat until I feel better. But, right now… I’m going on that couch and watching them make puppet magic.
Who is your favorite Muppet?
*- There is nothing wrong with the Lifetime Movie Network. It just isn’t my thing. At least, not usually.