I haven’t done one of these in a while, so I figured I should discuss it. We’re at 9 months, a week, and some days since I became a non-smoker. And now the most stressful time of the year is upon us. That’s why I had this big rush to get holiday stuff done early. I want nothing to sway me.
That said, I’m pretty much over needing cigarettes. There are just unexpected moments. Like when I see a box the wrong way, grab it like it is a pack, and I’m startled to find it isn’t a pack of cigarettes. When I’m half asleep and think “I should smoke to stay awake/wake up.” Now, those used to happen daily at first. Then weekly. I’m down to two or three times a month. But they catch me by surprise. They throw me for a loop and I awkwardly laugh it off.
As for mental recovery and returning to normal, I’m way better than I thought I would be. I kind of lost hope of regaining my “functionality” after a certain point. I’m still having A.D.D. issues since I don’t have something to help me focus, but I’m working through it with caffeine and slow attention endurance training. However, when I get tired or have slightly off body chemistry, things go down hill and are pretty bad (though not early days of quitting bad).
As I’ve been trying to run (out of shape and smoking lung damage need time to for me to overcome), I am getting better though I’m nowhere near where I want to be. I’m running a half mile every three days (add in warm up and cool down walking and it actually comes to a mile total… baby steps). But I do feel my lungs regaining their youthful capacity (I was a very loud screamer and held my breath under water a for a long time when I was younger). I still have tons of pre-quitting and a bit of post-quitting weight to deal with. But working on running longer (which I am) should eventually get that taken care of.
Basically, no regrets. I can’t wait to hit one year smoke free.